Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Frustrated

I'm going to preface this post by saying that, first of all, I am SO thankful. For so many things. For my precious HEALTHY children. For this sweet little one growing inside of me. For my wonderful husband. For this amazing job opportunity that God has brought to us. But man am I starting to feel a bit overwhelmed these days. I don't feel like I can get a step ahead at all. It's all I can do to not fall behind. Whether it's laundry, groceries, paperwork - there's just so much. Trying to keep the house clean so that it's ready to show at any minute. Struggling to balance all of my normal life stuff, watching an extra child 3x a week, church responsibilities, and yet feeling completely exhausted. It's frustrating feeling as though you need more time, and yet have got to lay down for a nap or you won't make it through the day! Knowing that we have a very busy few weeks ahead of us. We head down to SC next weekend for the official "vote-in" weekend at the church, and we are SO excited! But I know it's going to kick off a whirlwind of activity too - David's first Sunday at the church will be Easter Sunday. Which is a HUGE service to plan and is not that far off. So there's a lot to be done.

We are still praying fervently for our house to sell so that we can all move together at the same time. Otherwise, we'll be facing a period of separation while the kids and I stay here to get the house sold and David starts work down there. Something that we had decided on a few months ago, but as I get more and more pregnant every day, feels more and more daunting to me.

I don't feel as though I can even put very many deep thoughts together lately. I'm trying to focus on the main things - and unfortunately the other things are going to have to wait. I'm okay with that though! I have felt very protective over my kids recently - I think because of all these trips we've been having to make and having to "deposit" them with people. I'm just ready to be settled...but that's a ways off. It's okay though. I'm working on finding contentment amidst the chaos!

9 comments:

Judy said...

Oh sweet friend! I'm about to head to bed and I will spend a little time praying for you guys and EVERYTHING that's going on! I know it will all come together in the end, but that doesn't make each stressful moment any easier! Just take care of yourself and your kiddos and don't worry if the house isn't perfect! God has the perfect buyer in mind!
Love you!

The Stein Family said...

I feel for you -- I can esp identify with having so much to do, but only wanting to take that nap -- and I'm not a daytime napper typically. Hang in there, before long you'll be settling back into a new type of 'normal' and it won't seem so bad :) I'll say a prayer for you guys!

anthonyandbeth said...

love you Katy, praying for you, praying for the house, and praying about the move. i know there is a lot going on in almost EVERY area of your life. :) God will sustain you and give you wisdom to know what needs to get done and what things shouldn't be a focus right now. trust Him for that guidance! wish i were there to give you a big hug! love you!

Jayne said...

Oh Katy, I truly know what you are experiencing, but with 2 less kids! I lived alone for 5 months pregnant, working, keeping the house and laundry and meals for myself while Trevor lived here at the Beach and worked. Even after Grayson arrived (thankfully my mom and sister were just across town!) I lived with the adjustment of a newborn by myself. And then when our house rented out super fast, I had to pack everything essentially alone, and move in with my parents for a couple months while Trevor put housing together for us here at the Beach. So yes, that's just the surface of knowing how you're feeling, not just emotionally but with tasks too! It's great to know that you have God on your side and that even during this season He will give you everything you need for each day, each task, and meet emotional needs too, especially if separation is in your future! And although I'm busy with working and trying to get my own new home in order, just reach out if you need something! You know I'm an expert packer and I am available mornings between 8:30 and 12:00!!

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Courtney said...

oh, friend, you have SO much on your plate. praying HARD for that house to sell...

Heather J said...

I can only imagine, the whole keeping the house clean with kiddos is struggle enough, nevermind being prego and everything else you've got going on! Just find rest in Him as always!

Jenn said...

I am in awe of all you have going on right now...and how wonderfully you are handling it. Hang in there. You are in my prayers. Love you!

dandsratz said...

You are cotinually in our prayers. It is so evident how hard these days are for you, and its hard to see you struggling as you are. Just know that the Lord is faithful to supply all of your needs....and rest in Him instead of your own strength!!!! The house WILL sell!!! :) Its SO cute!!!