Monday, August 17, 2009

balance

i'm going to try to keep this post short because i don't have much energy for much more. i'm struggling with balance today. Mom left today to go back home, and it was a rough afternoon. i was tired, kids were tired - rough combination. i'm trying not to look too far ahead of myself, but find myself going there and becoming overwhelmed. i'm so excited for josiah and his first day of first grade on wednesday - i know he's going to love it. but i'm feeling terribly guilty that his last few weeks of summer have been so terribly boring for him. i know he's feeling cooped up, and i hate that i haven't been able to do more fun and exciting things with him before he's back to school all day. sometimes i think he gets the brunt of things - having to play quietly while the little ones are napping so that i can lay down and get some rest. i know i need to rest and recover, but how do i balance that along with making sure that his needs are met. it's rough. i say this everytime i have a baby, but they all need such different things from me these days. it will be a balancing act trying to keep all the balls in the air. one day at a time, i know. i'm just saying. rough afternoon.

7 comments:

Courtney said...

oh. i KNOW. it's SO hard. and you feel SO many things for ALL of them. he is fine. they are fine. and you are doing GREAT!!

anthonyandbeth said...

oh Katy! wishing i could give you a big hug! it's so hard when you have a new one...all the emotions, changes, excitement and exhaustion. you DO need your rest and believe me i know you aren't resting enough...i know you too well! keep things simple right now. y'all have had a full summer and lots of fun! school will be FUN for Josiah and he's gonna be so excited to go! things will get easier and you'll get into a groove soon. just rest as much as you can and don't think too far ahead. like you said...one day at a time! love you!

Tiffany said...

Katy...I know what you mean with the oldest getting the shaft at times, but don't stress take it one at a time as you said and it will all come together. Your a great Mom and Josiah knows that. Congrats on baby caleb by the way...we have been out of town during all your excitment! Love and prayers

Jenn said...

I don't know how you do ALL that you do! You are a GREAT mom, and all of your kids KNOW it! Hang in there. It will get better, I'm sure!! Sending hugs! XOXO

Judy said...

Luke 12:27
"Consider how the lilies grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these."
I love that verse because it reminds me of parenting. I love to think of my kids like those lilies. I feel like they are only going to be stable, successful, joyful individuals if I do this or do that or labor over them BUT sometimes when we just REST in what God has begun in them they turn into something more beautiful than we could have ever created. Greater than Solomon in "all his glory." Josiah has Jesus working in him and he's going to be just fine. Moving, new baby, new school is a lot of change, but the King of Kings, the Prince of Peace, is living in his heart and he's going be just fine, even if his last few weeks of summer aren't packed full of "fun" stuff. I think you've been doing a great job, personally :) I mean you even took them to the zoo when you were in labor!!!

Heidi said...

Katy, you are truly one amazing woman. You have endured alot of change in a short amount of time and I know through those changes the Lord has strengthed and stretched you beyond your wildest imagination and more importantly your faith stayed strong through it all and he was right beside you every step. Continue to let Him lead through this new chapter of adding a new little one which by the way...he's one adorable little guy!! I realize each child that he blessed me with that my dependence on Him is even more important. Just remember don't get caught up in what the world says we should be doing with our children to "have fun" I believe some of their best memories will be right by your side with what you are given. I do know exactly how you feel though first hand. When my mom first left it was the most overwhelming lonely feeling, but I'm here to tell ya...it does get better even if at the moment it doesn't feel like it and I know you know that. I'm praying for you!!

Gabe said...

Katy! I keep checking your blog here and there to see how things are going. I love these blogs! I don't have one, but since I am home now it's so nice to hear other moms and how things go with them. I know the emotions and lack thereof sleep is so hard to keep the "balance" there. I know it's got to be such a challenge with four...but if anyone can do it, I know you can..will be praying for you tonight. Hard when our mommies have to leave, wouldn't it be nice for the grandmas to stay around all the time! Hang in there sweet girl, you'll be giving lessons to the rest of us! Lots of Love xoxo Amy