Monday, August 17, 2009
i'm going to try to keep this post short because i don't have much energy for much more. i'm struggling with balance today. Mom left today to go back home, and it was a rough afternoon. i was tired, kids were tired - rough combination. i'm trying not to look too far ahead of myself, but find myself going there and becoming overwhelmed. i'm so excited for josiah and his first day of first grade on wednesday - i know he's going to love it. but i'm feeling terribly guilty that his last few weeks of summer have been so terribly boring for him. i know he's feeling cooped up, and i hate that i haven't been able to do more fun and exciting things with him before he's back to school all day. sometimes i think he gets the brunt of things - having to play quietly while the little ones are napping so that i can lay down and get some rest. i know i need to rest and recover, but how do i balance that along with making sure that his needs are met. it's rough. i say this everytime i have a baby, but they all need such different things from me these days. it will be a balancing act trying to keep all the balls in the air. one day at a time, i know. i'm just saying. rough afternoon.